Starting Over

It's been almost a month since I've blogged. I took a much needed vacation from internet posting altogether. I started seeing something in me that I didn't like. Ever so slowly, a temptation was rising up in me to compete or to at least look competitive. Competitive in what you ask? Well . . . everything.

In my other blogging, I did Sunday recaps. The temptation was always to try to make the service sound better than maybe it actually was. This didn't happen all the time, but at the risk of it looking as if we had an off day to readers and maybe church members, I would sugar coat the truth. Nobody's fault but my own. Then of course, I got to thinking about my reasoning for posting Sunday recaps. Is my blog really my blog, or is it a church blog? Am I blogging my true thoughts, or am I blogging what I wish people would think about me and maybe my ministry? Honestly, I've felt quite hypocritical many times. There were many times I left our Sunday services scratching my head wondering what in the world happened only to blog that "we had a good service." I'm just trying to be honest here.

In a world and occupation where the natural tendencies to fight are those of competition and measuring up, I found my blog to be another fight rather than a place to express myself, my thoughts, and my feelings. Reading back, I mostly only blogged about church events. People in my church did read them and I got some great comments, so I recognize the importance and impact blogging about church happenings can have. This is why I've decided to separate the two. In the coming weeks, I'm going to develop a church blog in which anyone in ministry at the church can use and post on. It will hopefully become the official place for Perry Crossroads Church of God feedback and discussion. As for my blog . . . sorry to disappoint, but you're just going to get me. It'll be my thoughts, my struggles, my feelings . . . me. I may or may not talk about a Sunday service, but if I do, it'll be my honest interpretation.

Hey, I'm not trying to be selfish here. I'm not trying to be something I'm not. I think one thing I've learned over the past month is that people in general are tired of watching preachers put the "S" on their chest every time they are in public whether that be in the community or on the internet. When many people's dreams have crashed to the ground in the wake of reality, they want to see someone in reality that still has the ability to dream. I want to be that kind of person.

So here's to the new start. New site. New blog. New beginning. Hope you enjoy. I know I will.